The city we live in has a subsidy program for daycare. We theoretically qualify for and are going through the application process. This would be for W to help with his social skills as well as to help prepare him for school next year.
We are looking specifically at preschool programs.
On Saturday one of the daycare/preschool’s were having an open house. So we went to it.
We were there for a while while W was exploring and enjoying the fasciitis I was talking with the supervisor about their programs, teachers and specifically W and his needs and struggles.
While speaking with the supervisor I realized I wasn’t making eye contact so then I intentionally made eye contact but then I felt like I was making to much eye contact. I never really realized until this past weekend how intimate eye contact is and it feels so awkward and uncomfortable when done with a stranger. It would be like walking up to a random person on the street and giving them a kiss! You would never do that and yet this intense form of intimacy is demanded of us on a daily basis.
Perhaps it doesn’t feel that way to others but it does to me.
The more I learn about W and autism the more I realized that I likely am autistic as well and the more I learn about myself.
Funny thing is W actually isn’t too bad at making eye contact while talking.